The Specialist.

We walked up to the massive building labeled "Medical Tower 1 425". Tears from the intense anxiety I was feeling swam around my eyes just waiting to be let loose. As we walked in I asked if we were in the right place and she said yes, took our temperature, and told us to get some germ-x. She told me to take the elevator to the third floor. So the farmer and I walked down the empty halls and got to the elevator and headed up.

When we arrived on the third floor we followed the signs to the doctor's office. My stomach was in my throat. We checked in and were swiftly taken back even though we were early. We had a level two ultrasound scheduled for the day, our anatomy scan . I laid on the table watching the tv screen intensely.

I noticed that what I thought were gas bubbles I had been having all night and all morning seem to shift as the babies did. Then it hit me, I wasn't having gas bubbles. I was FEELING them move! Every time she poked at my lower belly, they would squirm and playfully kick. Kayven is so active compared to Colten and at one point seemed to be boxing at Colten while Colten softly pushed back.

The room was quiet a majority of the time with her telling us what she was measuring every few minutes. " Baby A's leg bone, thigh, brain, kidneys, heart." Then she went to Baby B, "Baby B's leg bone, thigh, brain, kidneys, heart." There were a few times she'd say, "Wow. They're so active." or "Look at him go!" Kevin and I laughed and giggled knowing just how much trouble we'd be in once they got here.

I had a sinking feeling start to hit when I noticed her measuring Baby B's brain a little more closer and in-depth than she had Baby A's. I knew in the pit of my stomach she had found something, but what it was, I didn't know. After the ultrasound, we were taken to a room and we waited on the specialist to come in.

It felt like forever. I kept reminding myself that the specialist had a lot of photos to go through and it would take a little while for that. Then he walked in and sat in the chair beside us and asked about my previous miscarriages, how we had gotten pregnant (what medications I had taken), and then he told us he had made a few findings on the ultrasound.

I could FEEL myself panic breathing. Like that feeling when your heart feels like it's in your throat and you can't breathe well. He told us that Baby A, our little boxer, Kayven, had an Echogenic intracardiac focus, which is an indicator of down syndrome but our DNA test had come back negative for that so he felt it was an isolated incident, it is common, and there were no other indicators of down syndrome so he felt it was fine but he was going to keep an eye on it.

Echogenic intracardiac focus: Echogenic intracardiac focus is a small bright spot seen in the baby's heart on an ultrasound exam. This is thought to represent mineralization, or small deposits of calcium, in the muscle of the heart. EIFs are found in about 3–5% of normal pregnancies and cause no health problems.

Then he got on to Baby B, our little sweetie, Colten. Colten has cysts on his brain and just above the normal amount of fluid on his brain. The cysts, Choroid Plexus Cysts, sometimes indicated Trisomy 18. When he said that I almost vomited, I already knew all about it and my heart shattered but he quickly picked it back up and put on a bandaid. Our DNA test had also come back negative for that too and he has no other indicators of that. So he said it's nothing to worry about, it usually resolves on its own and most people don't even know they have cysts on their brains but they live perfectly normal lives. He also has just over the normal amount of fluid on his brain, so they'll be watching that also. We go back in three weeks to see if there are any changes with either baby.

Choroid Plexus Cysts: The choroid plexus is the part of the brain that makes cerebrospinal fluid, the fluid that normally bathes and protects the brain and spinal column. In about 1 to 2 percent of normal babies – 1 out of 50 to 100 – a tiny bubble of fluid is pinched off as the choroid plexus forms. This appears as a cyst inside the choroid plexus at the time of the ultrasound. A choroid plexus cyst can be likened to a blister and is not considered a brain abnormality.

The specialist was so great, he told us what Google would tell us then he told us our reality of the situation. He said overall the boys are good right now, but he is keeping them on his radar to make sure their issues don't progress into anything else. But overall, even the major findings aren't very big issues compared to what they could be.

I'm staying optimistic, for me, Kevin & them. I don't have any bad vibes about this and I think they'll be just fine.

Still, be in prayer for them, we have waited for them and we have wanted them for a while and here they are, so close to us that we can almost touch them.

We go to our regular obgyn this week to get a full report of all the findings and all the explanations of everything. So, pray for us.

-Lady of the Farm.