So, today's topic.. I'm going to go ahead and put a trigger warning about miscarriage here at the top. It's brief, but I thought I'd drop it here anyway. Just in case.
So, in May 2019 I had my first missed miscarriage. We didn't see the warning signs because I had never been pregnant before. But the signs were there. The baby just wasn't growing well. After that loss, I simply moved on without asking many more questions. I was just ready to try again. Then, in October 2019 I became pregnant with Junior. By January 3rd, we had lost him.
I remember texting my Nurse Practitioner at the most random of times to ask "Well, what if it was this?" "Can we do testing for that?" "I read about this, so what if it was this?" She finally told me that sometimes you'll never understand why it happens. Sometimes with miscarriage there are questions left unanswered. But as fate would have it, that wasn't something I'd accept. We did genetics testing, we did blood type testing, an entire fertility work up to check for blockages in my tubes.
Losing Junior just lit a fire in me to learn more about my body.
I began digging deep. Some nights I stayed up till 3-4am just doing research. Scribbling in a notebook. I even bought a subscription to a website with THOUSANDS of medical college studies and holistic medicine articles. I would stay up for hours just connecting the dots.
One night as I was praying I was so angry. Furious with God. I'm over here basically shouting to God, please just give me a child or some answers. Something!
That's when I got the instructions to fast and pray. I went on what I now know as the daniel fast. It's quite literally my favorite fast to do. I do it a couple times a year now as a "reset" and after I get past the first couple weeks I feel like a new person.
So anyway, back to the story. During week one of the fast it was like my mind was clearer than usual. I could think clearly and that's when I remembered being tested at age thirteen because of migraines. The meridian stress test. We went to some nurse's house. I don't remember her name just that she was in Douglas. It told us that I was gluten intolerant and allergic to chicken. Yeah, I know. It's quite weird.
So I cut gluten and chicken. By week two of the fast, my face was smaller. Which was the biggest red flag to me. It's what caused me to look into inflammation.
BY THE END OF THE FAST, THE END OF THIS FAST y'all... I was pregnant. I began connecting the dots and researching harder into the correlations between excess inflammation & miscarriage. Apparently it is actually a thing! I kept the inflammation off and was able to carry them full-term even for twins. Of course the doctors say no no it was the medicine. But I had been on the same medicines the first two times I lost babies. Something was definitely different.
Next Wednesday I will put together an entire anti-inflammatory 101 post! Stay Tuned!
-Lady of the Farm.
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